Well I am by no means settled, at all, but I think the end is in site. I only cried a couple times this week and feel much more hopeful about the whole situation. Of course the house situation is not going as well as we hoped, we thought we finally found the perfect house, that we actually both loved, but then found out for whatever reason the taxes were more than double that of the neighbors and home insurance, because it was in the city, was crazy.... so it pretty much canceled it.... we'll see if the taxes can be adjusted this week, but I'm not holding my breath. But I am feeling more optimistic and think I can make it through without being medicated ~ that's my goal anyways (:
On a different note, a best friend from high school hooked me up with an interview at her company. I'm totally excited for that! I feel like if I could get attached to something here it would help me settle in. I was nervous about child care, but I found another friend from high school whose wife watches kids in her home, so that would be great if the kids could stay together. Hopefully this week I'll find out if I got the job and how the kids feel about it... after all it is up to them (:
It is so weird to be back.... just odd to run into people who I don't recognize or remember, but they totally remember.
Also, I hope to have pics up this week.... I think I found a way to upload to this computer.... you would think by now I would have just gone and bought a new wireless router ~ I might this week, if my new idea doesn't work and I might just buy a new stroller also, since we won't be unpacking the storage anytime soon and my dear hubby thought it would be a good idea to put one of my favorite possessions in the bottom and middle of the storage unit!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
change
I am not good with change.... I knew this would be a HUGE adjustment for me, but hindsight is 20/20 and it was more than I realized. I was fine with everything until the house sold. Now I can't stop crying.... about everything.... I cry about the dumbest things. How did this happen, what happened to the stoic I used to be that would NEVER cry. Mark said he thinks I've cried more in the past couple weeks than my entire life ~ he is probably right. I realize this is probably a depressing post to read, but I'm hoping by venting it out, I'll get over this part of the process and move on to the next part. So here are things that I've cried about (hopefully in a couple more weeks I'll post the things that make me laugh!):
I took the kids for a walk.... there were no sidewalks, so I didn't feel safe with AJ not in the stroller. I missed the beautiful curbs and sidewalks of the past.
The other day was rather warm and sunny and I thought about the tulips and flowers in my old yard and my neighbor gardening.
All the kid's in Mark's family play with toy guns, AJ still calls them screwdrivers, but it makes me sad that he knows what a gun is now.
Someone asked me if I was going to spank AJ... he was in the midst of throwing a fit.
I wrote thank you cards to the people who helped us move and cried the whole time.
AJ found a fuzzy on the floor and said, "Mom, this looks like our carpet and I want to go home."
Anything AJ says about stuff in storage or stuff from our old house is instant tears.
Emails from friends.... sorry for not writing back yet.... I just can't stop crying.
Restaurants around here have smoking... and everyone here smokes! So awful to smell.... I had forgotten when I lived in "perfectville" and smoking wasn't allowed in public places. I'm not a smoker, so I guess that's why it is so noticeable to me.
Enough depressing thoughts.... I hope that once we get our own place things will change a little once I can unpack and have my own bed back and get things settled. Speaking of own place we are in negotiations with another bank for one of their homes, so maybe this week. We both like this house, but even though the home has never been lived in, it needs repairs. The economy here is awful so people actually break into empty homes and steals copper pipes and stuff they can sell. So we have some fixing to do where the garage was broken into and they messed with a couple of pipes in the basement... I had never heard of such a thing!
I took the kids for a walk.... there were no sidewalks, so I didn't feel safe with AJ not in the stroller. I missed the beautiful curbs and sidewalks of the past.
The other day was rather warm and sunny and I thought about the tulips and flowers in my old yard and my neighbor gardening.
All the kid's in Mark's family play with toy guns, AJ still calls them screwdrivers, but it makes me sad that he knows what a gun is now.
Someone asked me if I was going to spank AJ... he was in the midst of throwing a fit.
I wrote thank you cards to the people who helped us move and cried the whole time.
AJ found a fuzzy on the floor and said, "Mom, this looks like our carpet and I want to go home."
Anything AJ says about stuff in storage or stuff from our old house is instant tears.
Emails from friends.... sorry for not writing back yet.... I just can't stop crying.
Restaurants around here have smoking... and everyone here smokes! So awful to smell.... I had forgotten when I lived in "perfectville" and smoking wasn't allowed in public places. I'm not a smoker, so I guess that's why it is so noticeable to me.
Enough depressing thoughts.... I hope that once we get our own place things will change a little once I can unpack and have my own bed back and get things settled. Speaking of own place we are in negotiations with another bank for one of their homes, so maybe this week. We both like this house, but even though the home has never been lived in, it needs repairs. The economy here is awful so people actually break into empty homes and steals copper pipes and stuff they can sell. So we have some fixing to do where the garage was broken into and they messed with a couple of pipes in the basement... I had never heard of such a thing!
Monday, March 3, 2008
oh well
We got a call from the realtor today and I'm pretty sure we aren't going to get the house. There was another offer and it was slightly more than ours and we aren't interested in paying more.... so on to the next. The house would have needed to be completely redone and Mark has since confessed that he didn't really like it and was only interested because I liked it. So we don't want to pay more! This is fine since I hated the last house that he put an offer on.... third one is the charm right?!?!
Maybe we'll just rent, based on Mark and I's history of agreeing on things (:
I have more pics of the beginning of spring, but after I dug through the storage unit today and couldn't find the cords I needed, I'm not sure when we'll get them loaded on to a computer. Maybe tomorrow I'll get a new license!
Maybe we'll just rent, based on Mark and I's history of agreeing on things (:
I have more pics of the beginning of spring, but after I dug through the storage unit today and couldn't find the cords I needed, I'm not sure when we'll get them loaded on to a computer. Maybe tomorrow I'll get a new license!
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