coming around

Well I am by no means settled, at all, but I think the end is in site. I only cried a couple times this week and feel much more hopeful about the whole situation. Of course the house situation is not going as well as we hoped, we thought we finally found the perfect house, that we actually both loved, but then found out for whatever reason the taxes were more than double that of the neighbors and home insurance, because it was in the city, was crazy.... so it pretty much canceled it.... we'll see if the taxes can be adjusted this week, but I'm not holding my breath. But I am feeling more optimistic and think I can make it through without being medicated ~ that's my goal anyways (:

On a different note, a best friend from high school hooked me up with an interview at her company. I'm totally excited for that! I feel like if I could get attached to something here it would help me settle in. I was nervous about child care, but I found another friend from high school whose wife watches kids in her home, so that would be great if the kids could stay together. Hopefully this week I'll find out if I got the job and how the kids feel about it... after all it is up to them (:

It is so weird to be back.... just odd to run into people who I don't recognize or remember, but they totally remember.

Also, I hope to have pics up this week.... I think I found a way to upload to this computer.... you would think by now I would have just gone and bought a new wireless router ~ I might this week, if my new idea doesn't work and I might just buy a new stroller also, since we won't be unpacking the storage anytime soon and my dear hubby thought it would be a good idea to put one of my favorite possessions in the bottom and middle of the storage unit!

change

I am not good with change.... I knew this would be a HUGE adjustment for me, but hindsight is 20/20 and it was more than I realized. I was fine with everything until the house sold. Now I can't stop crying.... about everything.... I cry about the dumbest things. How did this happen, what happened to the stoic I used to be that would NEVER cry. Mark said he thinks I've cried more in the past couple weeks than my entire life ~ he is probably right. I realize this is probably a depressing post to read, but I'm hoping by venting it out, I'll get over this part of the process and move on to the next part. So here are things that I've cried about (hopefully in a couple more weeks I'll post the things that make me laugh!):
I took the kids for a walk.... there were no sidewalks, so I didn't feel safe with AJ not in the stroller. I missed the beautiful curbs and sidewalks of the past.
The other day was rather warm and sunny and I thought about the tulips and flowers in my old yard and my neighbor gardening.
All the kid's in Mark's family play with toy guns, AJ still calls them screwdrivers, but it makes me sad that he knows what a gun is now.
Someone asked me if I was going to spank AJ... he was in the midst of throwing a fit.
I wrote thank you cards to the people who helped us move and cried the whole time.
AJ found a fuzzy on the floor and said, "Mom, this looks like our carpet and I want to go home."
Anything AJ says about stuff in storage or stuff from our old house is instant tears.
Emails from friends.... sorry for not writing back yet.... I just can't stop crying.
Restaurants around here have smoking... and everyone here smokes! So awful to smell.... I had forgotten when I lived in "perfectville" and smoking wasn't allowed in public places. I'm not a smoker, so I guess that's why it is so noticeable to me.

Enough depressing thoughts.... I hope that once we get our own place things will change a little once I can unpack and have my own bed back and get things settled. Speaking of own place we are in negotiations with another bank for one of their homes, so maybe this week. We both like this house, but even though the home has never been lived in, it needs repairs. The economy here is awful so people actually break into empty homes and steals copper pipes and stuff they can sell. So we have some fixing to do where the garage was broken into and they messed with a couple of pipes in the basement... I had never heard of such a thing!

oh well

We got a call from the realtor today and I'm pretty sure we aren't going to get the house. There was another offer and it was slightly more than ours and we aren't interested in paying more.... so on to the next. The house would have needed to be completely redone and Mark has since confessed that he didn't really like it and was only interested because I liked it. So we don't want to pay more! This is fine since I hated the last house that he put an offer on.... third one is the charm right?!?!

Maybe we'll just rent, based on Mark and I's history of agreeing on things (:

I have more pics of the beginning of spring, but after I dug through the storage unit today and couldn't find the cords I needed, I'm not sure when we'll get them loaded on to a computer. Maybe tomorrow I'll get a new license!

Thank you!

Well we are moved.... and from what we can tell the only damage was one broken garden hose keeper. This is amazing! For those of you that came to help us, I could never say thank you enough. We were so unprepared. The sad thing is, we didn't recognize this face until about 10:30 or so the night before we moved. We really thought things were ok... we knew we would be busy, but thought everything was pretty much doable ourselves. We had got some packing in the truck done and a couple people stopped by and the guys put in a couple of heavy things and Mark and I thought at that point we pretty much had it wrapped up. From my stand point the kid's stuff was taken care off and so was mine, so we were done. I couldn't have been more wrong!!! Thankfully a couple of girls who knew what they were doing took over and clean out the house. As I look back and think about it, it is both embarrassing and amazing. I now know what I should do when I move.... granted I should have probably figured that out a week before everything, but oh well! I think I'm still in a little shock we actually moved and maybe denial was the reason I wasn't prepared. I am proud to say that I made it through closing without crying! Big step in the process that I'm still dealing with.... I did start crying today when AJ asked me if tomorrow was the day we were going back home to Illinois. It is so sad to have to tell him, we have to find a new house and we don't live there anymore.

I miss my friends!!

On a positive note we put a offer in tonight.... yeah!! It need to be completely redone, but it's just outdated, not disgusting like some we've seen. The price was amazing and the school district was the best in this area, so that's great. Hopefully I'll be posting some good news in a couple of days. Also, I have a couple pics of the move, but apparently the cords to the laptop are in a different box (I think the same one as my phone charger!), so I'm can't put any pics up until I find it.

Thanks again to everyone that helped us.... it is so appreciated and I don't think I could ever pay you enough for all you did, but I do hope to pay it forward!

Happy Birthday Aidan

In the middle of this complete upheaval, my baby boy turned 3. I'm so thankful for friend that let us come over and have some cake & ice cream. AJ asked if he could have some balloons, so those I think were the favorite item! I've been telling him all week he could pick out some cupcakes at the store (I felt bad for not making anything, but everything is packed!), anyways when we got there they only had skull cupcakes ~ nice! So we found some little cakes and he immediatley picked out this little dog one... so cute! I tried to put a pic in, but blogger didn't like it, so maybe another time. We are going to have a family party once we get moved and get everyone together, but I always like to at least recognize the day, so here are some pics..... notice his little buddy dressed up for the occassion (:

the gym and astronauts

First of all, I probably should not be updating this blog, but packing boxes, oh well. It was not a good evening so I'm going to take this as some stress relief.... only a bad evening because I think home ownership stinks sometimes!! We found out today how much we will make off the sale of our house.... comes out to about $10, so that's nice, anyways enough complaining and on to the good stuff!!

AJ decided they should be astronauts the other morning so he got himself and TK's "gear" on. I think this is so funny, because TK never has any idea what is going on and most of the time won't go along with it, but this time she didn't care (at least in the beginning!)




















Today we meet our local playgroup for our last activity with them ): So sad, but it was nice to see everyone again. We went to the local gym ~ we hadn't been there since TK was tiny, so it was so different to see how much AJ changed and loved it and once TK woke up she loved it too! We also went to noodles & co for lunch afterwards, which is a completely different story. (1 parent + 2 kids = good deal of stress!)



One final story, yesterday and today AJ kept telling me everytime we got in the car, "mom, normally flowers don't read books." For the life of me I couldn't figure out what he was talking about. So I just kept saying, you're right, or do see a flower, etc. Well I realized upon leaving Noodles that in the back seat you can see on the back of the console the rear controls for radio and heat and fan speed. Well there are 2 buttons with pictures of fans on them and then the following signs but in the up and down directions > < So AJ thought those signs looked like books and the fans looked flowers, so thus the flowers were reading. I do swear I spend half my energy trying to figure out what he sees and what he is referring to.

Well I think I have time to finish up a couple more boxes before tomorrow!

oops! wrong number

I have to say, Mark and I have been doing a fabulous job of getting things done and keeping up on reciepts from 2 different states and getting addresses changed, but today we had a little oopsy! We each have a credit card to one of our favorite stores in town, but haven't actually used it in awhile, so we had to call to change our address, rather than use the statement. Well I called and they gave me the 800 number, which I used and took care of mine and then emailed Mark the number for him to take care of his. Well, I accidently switched 03 to 30 in the number. So Mark, on break at work and using a work phone, called, well there was a recording giving a different number for him to call. When he called the 2nd number they started asking him what kind of "hot girls" would he like to talk to!! So he calls me saying, "What are doing to me?!? Get me fired before I've even worked 2 months!?!" Not having any idea what he was referring to I didn't get it, but once he explained it to me, I thought it was quite funny!